I don't know where to begin. It has been a long 8 months, and it's not even close to being the end. I have to live with losing my child for the rest of my life. Funny thing is, is that today at work I was telling one of the ladies that I am so scared to move on with my life because, I don't want another Christian, I don't want to EVER meet someone like Greg. I am so scared that I am going to live my life in shame, and agony. I don't know what to do.