Wed, 13 Apr 2005
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These past 8 months
I don't know where to begin. It has been a long
8 months, and it's not even close to being the
end. I have to live with losing my child for the
rest of my life. Funny thing is, is that today
at work I was telling one of the ladies that I am
so scared to move on with my life because, I
don't want another Christian, I don't want to
EVER meet someone like Greg. I am so scared that
I am going to live my life in shame, and agony.
I don't know what to do.
Posted 21:52
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12 comments
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Excerpt from Mister Rogers
Confronting our feelings and giving them
appropriate expression always takes strength,
not weakness. It takes strength to acknowledge
our anger, and sometimes more strength yet to
curb the aggressive urges anger may bring and to
channel them into nonviolent outlets. It takes
strength to face our sadness and to grieve and
to let our grief and our anger flow in tears
when they need to. It takes strength to talk
about our feelings and to reach out for help and
comfort when we need it.
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Guilt
Tammy, I didn't know when or how to approach
you with this, because somehow I feel your grief
and the same feelings I have are overwhelming
for you. However, I wanted you someday to know
that what you are going through, I share a lot
of the same grief, anger, and most of all
guilt. On August 7th 2004 forever more, I will
feel such guilt that Greg even had Christian
that day. If only I would have kept him instead
of getting my house cleaned for some stupid get-
together! I cry daily thinking I could have
somehow stopped what happened that day. I know
that everyone has told me that if it wouldn't
have happened that day, then it would have been
some other day, but my thinking is, maybe we
would have seen the real Greg before it would
have happened. I don't know, but I do know that
I do have great feelings of guilt. I loved
Christian so much and miss him terribly.
There's not a single day that goes by that I
don't think about him and look at the stars and
hope that he sees me and knows just how much he
was loved! I love you so much and pray that you
will go on with your life and remember all the
love and goodness Christian brought to our lives
and not the tragedy that took his life.
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You're in my thoughts
I was browsing the internet when I found your
website. As I sit here reading your story tears
flow down my face I don't even begin to know who
you are but God knows and I know he hears our
prayers I just want to let you know that I'm
going to pray for you and hope that one day the
road seems to be a little brighter but hold your
head up because you did nothing wrong you were
only trying to provide for your sun. You're in
my thoughts.
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Thank you everyone
for one, to my mother....Please don't feel
quilty. I am the same way every day. What if
this what if that. I want Christian home so
bad. I was the happiest person alive when he
was here. I could not have been happier. I
miss him every moment of every day. To MRS
ROBIN, you give me so much insperation and
love. You are my second mom and I appreciate
everything that you do for me. I love you. To
Petrece, thank you for keeping me and my family
in your prayers.
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Happy Birthday Christian
March 14, 2006: Tammy, I just want to let you
know that I feel privledged to known little
Christian and that I still get choked-up when I
think of him. I'll never forget: HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Christian! Love, Mr. Keith
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angel baby
what a beautiful little baby.r.i.p
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Thinking of you....
Dear Tammy, I want you to know that even though
I don't know you... I do know your Aunt and
Uncle Guy and Joanne....who lost Billy...I hope
that you are sharing your grief with them
also...I feel sure that they can help you
cope...you will always remember the little angel
that God sent you and you must believe that he
is still with you...looking over you and knowing
that your love is pure and you will always be
his mother...I hope that you will get signs from
your son as your aunt and uncle have from
Billy...you can be sure also that Billy and
Christian are together doing the things that
makes them happy...God Bless you......and may he
ease your pain...and may you have faith that one
day you will be with Christian again...and that
he is infact with you now........
Lovingly,
Dawn
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It was NEVER your fault.
I stumbled across your website I'm not sure how.
I lost my son on March 24, 2005. He was struck
while on his skateboard by a 16 yr old kid driving
70 mph in a 45 mph zone. He died in the
helicopter on the way to the hospital after he
flew 200 feet into oncoming traffic. Two years
later the grief is still overwhelming.
I have to say to you - please know that the death
of your son was not your fault. And it wasn't
your fault either Nancy. We should all be able to
have our houses cleaned and to go to work without
worrying about our day care provider murdering our
children. You are not to blame. The only person
to blame here is the one that killed your
beautiful Christian. You couldn't have known and
therefore couldn't have done anything to prevent
this. People like Greg are so deceptive. They
don't reveal themselves until after you are
married. He would have beat you to death along
with any children you had. To Hell with him for
what he did. Don't let him take the rest of your
life away from you. Men like that only prey on
sweet people like you.
There is a wonderful man out there waiting to love
you and the children you can have together. Get
some counseling from someone who specializes in
the death of a child and to help you recognize the
patterns so that no one can ever prey on you and
yours again.
You are in my prayers. Here is an excellent
website for support from other grieving parents:
http://webhealing.com/forums/index.php#1 When you
need to talk someone will be there to listen.
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tammy,
i often think of you and what you have gone
through. i have two little ones myself and cant
imagine the pain you have felt since christian
passed. i know things are going well for you
now and all though one can never and will never
replace Christian i hope you have found true
happiness with your new baby.....i wish you all
the best in the future....
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A New Angel has been born
First i liked to say how sorry I am for your
lost.But always remember to be strong for your
self and your family.I promise you,it gets
better and when ever you think of this as a loss
think again we've got a new beatiful angel
watching over us. I will keep you in my prayers.
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An Angel by your side
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son
Christian, I came across Christian's site
through Billy's website, and came across Billy's
site while browsing the internet for a medium. I
will keep you & your angel in my prayers. May
God comfort your heart always.
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I share your pain.
Hi Tammy, I just lost my baby girl one month
ago,she suffocated and her precious brain died
like your Christian. I know the pain you feel
and I just want to tell you that reading about
you and Christian gives me hope that I can go on
without my sweet Joanna. Thank you and know that
you are in my thoughts and prayers.
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